![]() hi im jams, internet funnyman supreme and eccentric freak beast. i like creating things, though my persistent fatigue gets in the way. (i think my medication dosage might be too low.) i also like consuming other media! my favourite medium for stories is video games, and i would like to make an rpg maker game someday. (click on the image for a list of my interests, once i add it) i live in canada, and right now i dont see myself leaving it anytime in the future. i want to become a welder someday, so i can hopefully work on and off to save energy for my creative work. and i know its a pipe dream, but i want to be able to financially support my boyfriend if hes ever able to move here. most of my creative work is digital art, but sometimes i make custom levels for the game "rhythm doctor"try searching "jams" in the author field here!, and (very rarely) make music. i would also like to get into mapmaking in rpg maker, in part because i would like to contribute to the in-dev yume nikki fangame "collective unconscious". i want to make more things with my hands, but getting supplies is difficult. i do kandi sometimes. im out of the Good string right now though. ive been drawing gore since i was 12, and body horror since well before then. i love unusual themes in media, and ive always had a strong sense for the "vibes" of tropes and scenarios, for lack of a better word. despite how the internet has ascribed a sexual connotation to a lot of the things i enjoy, i would not consider my interest in unusual content to be a kink or fetish. (having my artwork construed as pornographic when it isnt supposed to be is a pervasive fear of mine. please dont do that, ill probably cry.) ![]() ive found myself caring less about internet discourse in recent years. maybe thats just part of growing up? my opinions havent really changed, i still align with the "anti" perspective & whatnot, but i dont care enough to argue with people online. like i could care less what proshitters and lolicon are doing online. i think theyre objectively shitty people & id like them to stay away from me, but like. not my toilet not my shit. theres always gonna be gross freaks out there. ill curate my own circle and i dont really care what new kinds of degeneracy theyre cooking up on 4chan and twitter. i like to call myself not human, or not real, but i dont experience any sort of delusions. i just like referring to myself in strange ways. i suppose i could call it gender expression? i dont really like traditional labels, though. i dont bother to call myself anything other than trans/nonbinary or queer. my orientation is a mystery, aside from "if you think im hot that means youre gay". if i had to label myself id probably say bi grey-ace or something but like i dont give a shit just dont misgender me on purpose or whatever i generally try to be a nice person. ideally, id like to be seen as trustworthy and approachable. i struggle with controlling my behaviour sometimes due to a cocktail of mental problems, but i try to make up for that by being kind. i like to look for the love and beauty in the world wherever i can find it; it keeps me sane, and keeps me stubborn. i believe in the indomitability of the human spirit, and i want to overcome whatever odds ill face. i think ive turned into a bit of a romantic lately back |